The world complete

As this years draws to a close I find myself thinking of friends and family, of changes and growth, of love and sadness. It is through the passage of every day, handling the situations that come before us, loving our partners through the thick and thin of things, trying to deal with all things with grace that we create who we are.

We need to live inside of our lives, accepting each moment, embracing each joy and learning about the truth inside of ourselves, who we are...

I wonder how we can feel so alone when we are loved, how we can feel so isolated when we hold another body so close, why we put ourselves through the anguish of despair.

I was in the hospital 2 times in the past 2 weeks and I felt so alone but I knew it was my meds, my feeling of needing comfort and my want for a soul to be completely focused on me. It wasn't worth talking to my significant other about as these needs were within me and I knew it...

I worry when that ennui starts to happen in my life, in my relationship, that I will look for a change when it is just a new feeling that I need. I am worried that my partner is feeling that and will make major decisions that will affect our lives when all it is is taking a few special moments to make each other feel loved again.

Why do we wait for the cliff in front of us before we start to work on changing the direction, the path we are on? Why not plant the flowers, sends the cards and give the kisses and the touches that create an environment of love and contentment?