The World, the year, my gifts

As this year comes to a close, I have reflected on my gifts from this year. On how far I have traveled on my personal journey...What a year, what changes, what growth! This has been a year of personal changes for me, a year of laughter and a year of pain. It has offered me a chance to look at my life and evaluate who I am and where I want to go. It has given me opportunity to see my strengths and acknowledge my weaknesses and learn how to work within them.

I have loved, I have lost, I have cared for people, I have lost some dear ones both by choice as well as death. I have held hands of some of the sweetest people and I have smiled at some of the "kings" of our times. I have been an instrument of change as well as the instrument of growth. I have been hard on myself as well as too lax. I have had to let go and realize that I cannot control forces outside of my world. I sometimes cannot even control my world.

I have watched movies that have made me cry and have had to hold my stomach for laughing too hard. My ears and heart have heard songs that have lifted me up (first one to mind is BLISS from the UK, they are incredible, listen to their song 100,000 angels, it will change you as it has me). I have eaten food as I sat with friends that tasted so wonderful, it was being in that moment together that mattered.

I have seen some incredible places this year, Venice, Greece Islands and Tahiti. I have walked where the ancients have walked and I have moved through time, as I experienced a piece of their civilization. I have felt the grandeur of the ocean and frailty of man as we travel on it and we are so small against its enormity. I have had the sweet love of my pets during this year as they look for me to walk through the door, I am their security and their talisman of love.

I have created websites and I have made a difference in people lives. I have personally changed jobs several times this year and have discovered how flexible I am. I enjoy being in the midst of change and leading the masses to a new level.

I have been tested and tried by fire. Out of chaos, I have found a side of strength. My determination and my experience have well prepared me for these moments of testing. My eyes, my heart, my life now opens with a new perspective.

Saying goodbye to love is one of the most painful situations. Letting someone go, even when it is the best thing to do, still tears at the heart. Watching them take flight, away from you, with a joy in their eyes that they did not have for you, cuts a deep wound. The bandage to that situation is the knowledge that when one door closes, another opens and sometimes it is the very thing that we are waiting for. I am waiting in the knowing that my moment, my love, is coming soon. My Heart will heal as I remember that it also wasn't the best situation for me. I now have the chance to find that person who will make my eyes light up, who wants me as much as I want them and who believes in love and wants to commit to me.

These are my gifts from this past year, these are what treasures I have taken away from the 365 days of 2007, these are my possibilities for 2008. As I open the coming year, I look with excitement to see what curves, turns, bumps, flights, and path my next 365 days will hold? Are you excited about your adventure?