The World, gray clouds and blue sky's

Isn't it funny that we live our life often measured by the smiles we shared or the hugs that we have given and yet there are moments when those milestones seem so far away. We get lost in a land of negativity and our tolerance for people becomes less and less and we get edgier whenever someone asks something of us. I find that I am in that land right now, I cannot stand to talk on the phone, don't want to hear what people have to say and really don't like their viewpoints, especially if it crosses mine.

I am trying to examine the whys of this situation and I find that it is ALL the things that I have wanted to say over the years and held back as good girls/women do, it is the times when someone spoke down to me, or abusively to me, or the mean spirited tone of someone. So, as I reflect on this it is my past that I am angry with and not my moment, here and now. It is the loved ones and strangers from yesterday that I am angry with and the ones here front and center are just having to deal with the aftermath.

In this is two lessons for me, 1. I need to treat everyone kindly, with compassion so as not to affect their future moments and 2. I need to release the pain from long ago, clear my throat chakra and just be in the now moment, not allowing the past to affect a precious shared moment or possibility.

I will try to take a moment, breathe through my pain (real or imagined) and smile at the person in front of me and know, that I choose to make a difference...