The World I want to live in

What do you like about other people? Is there a list that you keep in your head about what you like about your friends? Or even people that you have just met? Will Rodgers said that there wasn't anyone that he couldn't find something he liked about them, even if it was just saying goodbye. I am trying to look for the inspirational in people, for the good and the kind, rather than the fault finding and the all the issues. Sometimes it is hard, it takes a moment to shudder off the initial black or white "I like them, I Don't" it takes effort to look deeper and see something that makes them special.

I was in class yesterday and we had an exercise where we needed to write something we liked about our classmates and after we were done, to share it with them. I took a moment and examined them so I could find that deeper thing to tell them about, not just the "I like your smile". I found myself coming up for the easy compliment but I stuck with it. It was hard to look them in the eyes and tell them what I liked about them. What was harder still and more telling, was having to look them in the eyes as they told me what they liked about me. I went back to my seat and wrote down the ones I could remember, so when I have those down days were I need a lift, I will look at this and see how I am seen in the world. I was told that my energy is so positive, my smile is so welcoming, that I am so open is sharing what I am experiencing (which is really funny as I am soo Private)...that I have a wonderful voice and that they could listen to me talk for a long time, that I am so very intelligent and yet don't strut it around. All these thoughts helped me, find me on my journey.

I am learning so much about myself in this class, I am coming into an honest look of myself. A thing that shook me to my core yesterday, was the realization that to "play bigger", to get my dreams, I would have to become more visible. I think my whole life that I have become comfortable with sitting in the back seat...I was the middle child, the younger sister, the girl to my brother's boy, the good one who never made trouble, the one who was always there but never loud, never in the mix of things...raised in a religion that said women had to be less than man, a woman engineer who was in the room and knew the answers but was afraid of speaking up, a teenager who was the "one that men married, but didn't date"...No longer will that work for me, it is my time to show who and what I am, my time to put me first and get to where I want to go! There is no one more important than me, my needs and wants counts.

I want to play bigger, I want to be more, I want to be everything that I can be on this, my journey. I know that Nothing is Impossible, Do you?