The world, changes, internal, external

As I started this blog about changes, I did not realize how far, how fast and how massive my changes were. I was taking baby steps with change until I got pushed off the cliff. I am not afraid of pathway, in fact, I am starting to embrace it. I am not afraid of the unknown in my journey, in fact I am learning to respect that and to loosen the bonds of control and realize that my journey is already laid out for me, I just need to place one foot in front of the other, that is how my journey begins.

I met with my coach yesterday and I walked away from that meeting feeling so good, so high, so ready for my next challenges. I went out dancing last night and I had such a wonderful time. I let my self go, be there in the moment and just enjoy the simple pleasure of moving my body around a dance floor. I laughed from the bottom of my soul, I danced like no one was looking (or maybe I danced like they were looking and liking it, hmmm that's a thought!). I smiled from my heart, I played and I just had a wonderful time. I met new people and I opened up to people that I knew before. I learned about that space where I want to be in, where I want to live at.

I have captured that feeling in my heart, to carry me, so I can take it out and ensure that each singular moment, I am truly living in the wonderfulness of the breath. I am existing in the joy and that I walking in the love. I wish this for you also, where ever you may be, join me in this change.

The world, my view

Isn't it amazing that each year, as it draws to a close, we reminisce and wax nostalgic about all the people we have loved this year. In this context, I am talking about people who have made a difference in our lives and who we have allowed to enter into our lives. This love encompasses a wide variety of subtleties, from romantic and passionate to warm, life affirming, to a hug you while you are hurting type of love.

I have many people who I am grateful for as I review this year. There are my friends who have held me while I have cried over lost love, they have been my strength while I had none. There are my friends who do not judge, and I learn from them the ability to allow everyone their beliefs and their foibles. Then, my friends who work for social injustice, in its many forms, who make me a better citizen and a better custodian of our community, I watch them in their passion and I can believe that one voice makes a difference. They stand against intolerance and for justice. What about my friends that I play with, just spend the moment with and we laugh and we drink and we just enjoy the fleeting moment that we have etched out of our lives to spend together.

Also in the group is the people who have made me cry, whether that be in a mean spirited way or just from an emotional connection, a seeing into the spiritual. They have molded my journey this year, they have made me dig into my heart and cultivate the spring of tears. It is this harvest that I know that I am alive, that I am living a beautiful life and that I exist as a feeling person, not a robot going through the motions.

One of my greatest thanks is for my ex. That sounds funny doesn't it? It isn't. The gifts that I have recieved from our relationship I will carry with me forever and the wounds that I recieved I will heal from shortly and I will be a better partner. I now have words for my uncomfort, I now have definitions of my feelings that before did not have a form. They took the time to help me uncover them, to define them and to have them lead me to here, this moment. It was a brave step we took when we looked each other in the eyes and said I love you enough to free you from us. From having expectations, to having to perform, to having to dance to the tune I need to hear. We are both free to fly and feel the wind on our faces. We no longer tie each other down in a relationship depression. I am doing things and losing weight, where I think I wore the weight as a defence from the pain. I see the person is happier and I am happier, even though I miss the closeness, sometimes people just don't know how to be close.

This was a year of gifts from special people, I can only hope that I am as lucky in the year to come.

The World, the year, my gifts

As this year comes to a close, I have reflected on my gifts from this year. On how far I have traveled on my personal journey...What a year, what changes, what growth! This has been a year of personal changes for me, a year of laughter and a year of pain. It has offered me a chance to look at my life and evaluate who I am and where I want to go. It has given me opportunity to see my strengths and acknowledge my weaknesses and learn how to work within them.

I have loved, I have lost, I have cared for people, I have lost some dear ones both by choice as well as death. I have held hands of some of the sweetest people and I have smiled at some of the "kings" of our times. I have been an instrument of change as well as the instrument of growth. I have been hard on myself as well as too lax. I have had to let go and realize that I cannot control forces outside of my world. I sometimes cannot even control my world.

I have watched movies that have made me cry and have had to hold my stomach for laughing too hard. My ears and heart have heard songs that have lifted me up (first one to mind is BLISS from the UK, they are incredible, listen to their song 100,000 angels, it will change you as it has me). I have eaten food as I sat with friends that tasted so wonderful, it was being in that moment together that mattered.

I have seen some incredible places this year, Venice, Greece Islands and Tahiti. I have walked where the ancients have walked and I have moved through time, as I experienced a piece of their civilization. I have felt the grandeur of the ocean and frailty of man as we travel on it and we are so small against its enormity. I have had the sweet love of my pets during this year as they look for me to walk through the door, I am their security and their talisman of love.

I have created websites and I have made a difference in people lives. I have personally changed jobs several times this year and have discovered how flexible I am. I enjoy being in the midst of change and leading the masses to a new level.

I have been tested and tried by fire. Out of chaos, I have found a side of strength. My determination and my experience have well prepared me for these moments of testing. My eyes, my heart, my life now opens with a new perspective.

Saying goodbye to love is one of the most painful situations. Letting someone go, even when it is the best thing to do, still tears at the heart. Watching them take flight, away from you, with a joy in their eyes that they did not have for you, cuts a deep wound. The bandage to that situation is the knowledge that when one door closes, another opens and sometimes it is the very thing that we are waiting for. I am waiting in the knowing that my moment, my love, is coming soon. My Heart will heal as I remember that it also wasn't the best situation for me. I now have the chance to find that person who will make my eyes light up, who wants me as much as I want them and who believes in love and wants to commit to me.

These are my gifts from this past year, these are what treasures I have taken away from the 365 days of 2007, these are my possibilities for 2008. As I open the coming year, I look with excitement to see what curves, turns, bumps, flights, and path my next 365 days will hold? Are you excited about your adventure?

How I choose to live each moment

This is an incredible piece of inspiration that I found on the web that really shows how much energy we should give in our life every moment and how much we should give to every aspect, friends, work, love, etc. I had tears in my eyes the first time that I saw this clip, I hope it touches you as much as it did me! Love to hear your reactions to seeing this clip, it is on YouTube! Click here to watch this 6 minute clip http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vB59PkB0eQ

Tell me what you think!!!

The world of tomorrow

Did you ever think that you help create the life you lead, whether it is good or bad? That is truly an eye opening thought, one that takes me a moment to get my mind wrapped around. How do I create my mother's health problems, my sister's health issues, my job frustrations (ok, that one might be easy to see!), but I am trying to see how I impact those people lives to see where it is in my life and what I come around to is that that isn't what I create, i create the way I choose to respond to it.

This growing up to be a mature human, is not very easy. I know no one ever said it was, but it seems that once you think you start to have the answers, life throws you a punch that makes you wonder.

I leave to go to CA for my friend, she had surgery on her shoulder, it was blown out bad, she had 7 different breaks in the shoulder ball joint. She should be able to start physical therapy in 2 weeks, which is great news. We were devastated with her prognosis as she was going to start a new job in two weeks. I am hoping and sending my most positive thoughts to her "new" bosses that they hold the job for her.

Meditation is an incredible journey. I have been playing music and meditating and I see changes within. I think more before I react, I pause before the chaos gets too out of control, I listen in the din of living. Hopefully, the mediation leads me to a place that is quiet all the time, without all the fussiness of Real World.

I have a teacher who says that you should write every day as a way to let go and to start forgiveness. She believes in starting a journal and finishing it and then NEVER reading it as it is all the past and does not have any impact in the here and now. I believe that to be true. If I write about someone because they have adversely affected my life, why shouldn't I just write out how I feel and then move on?

I am glad to be taking a moment for myself in the next few days, even if I am caring for someone, it is a gift that I gave myself. I know she would never ask me to help her, as that is her way, but I also know that I want to be there. It is someplace to give and receive, almost like going home!

The World, the movement, the moment

In a split second it happens, an accident, a thing so distressful, so fraught with pain. It happens every day to someone, someplace. We all can have it change our lives, either in good ways or in painful, debilitating ways. It happened this weekend to me in several ways.

I was having a very large party, a fund raiser at my house and my friend from CA came to visit to enjoy the weekend and get to know some people. We were changing lights at the house and had already done the 18 feet high lights, we were on the last light to work on, which was about 7 feet on the house. I bent down to get the light bulb to put in my pocket and she was placing the ladder where needed it to be for best access. As I was getting up from reaching in the bag, she was already on the ladder, three rungs up. It was in slow motion that I saw it all unfold, the ladder slipping away from her and the house, her head and face rushing for the wall, and then I heard it happen, the delayed thunk of face hitting wall and neck being bent at unnatural angles. I thought for a moment that she had broken her neck. I was so afraid at that moment, there was no movement from her. I rushed into the house and screamed for my roommate to call 911, I rushed back to her and she started to move a little.

She had landed on the ladder and was laying on it so we got her off of the ladder and found that she was cut and couldn't move her arm. We heard the Sirens as they roared closer to us and we knew that help was on the way. Sweet Sounds of a Firetruck. They truly are heroes!

We spent all day in the hospital, but they finally released her with some prescriptions for pain. She ended up with 8 stitches, dislocated shoulder, fracture shoulder, blown out Orbital Bones and bruises ALL over. We were lucky, she would mend over a course of time. She was an excellent patient.

That same day, as I am dealing with the hospital, worried about my friend, trying to get the details for the party all set, I received a phone call that everyone in their lives worries about getting. It was my mother who was so upset, she had news that she knew I had to hear, right at that moment. The dreaded words that send cold water into your veins, "Your sister has Uterine Cancer, they do not know what stage it is at" I thought my heart had fallen to the bottom after the fall, but I was mistaken, the heart is bigger than one expects, it fell, crashed and burned. I called my sister, who also gave me the news, I told her that I would be her positive Coach and we would see her through this passage of time. I told her that Cancer did not define her existence, it was a thing in her body and we would fight it with every ounce that we had. I told her that as she did all the traditional treatment for her body to get through it, I would research for any information that I could find about alternative options to keep her body healthy. I am afraid but I will not show her, I will be her strength and someone who helps her see the light through this. I will be this person for both her, her husband and my parents. I will become the expert so I know what to expect and I will be joining a lot of support groups to better understand my enemy.

What about a life changing moment day, what about waking up and not knowing all of the transitions that your life could take. That is what I have come to expect about life. I breathe, therefore, it will be an exciting ride, many ups and some downs, some valley's that need to be conquered and explored, some peaks that need to celebrated and above all, some special people that need a helping hand to hold on to as they travel their lives path. That is why we exist, it is to share these moments, these passages with our loved ones, no matter what it lays out before us. That is courage, that is faith, that is Love!

The World and my focus

I am still working on myself as I go through the Workbook of the Celestine Prophecy. I am currently working on my "Past Pre-occupations" and how they have affected my life and my underlying beliefs. My buzz words have been self criticism, fear of others, and approval of others. I have always needed the approval of others in all that I did, as I did not realize that I really only needed to believe in myself, as I was the one who mattered.

This approval was from my childhood, my parents as they were my world, then on to the religious affiliation that I was raised in, everyone was always watching and looking, making sure that we lived the life we expounded, then in school, wanting to be cool and part of the in crowd, then on to work, trying to impress the boss and the boss's boss.

My fear of others was from society, I learned young that it could turn on you in a dime. I remember watching my father lose his job, poof, just like that! He came so low and discouraged and I remember, I was about 7 at the time, how mean the world was, my dad was a hero and he lost his career. That means he also lost the family vehicle as it was a company car, he had to call my mom to come and pick him up.

It is funny, we now talk about synchronicity and reciprocity and I think that I have always been aware of these principles and learned them young as well. There was someone in our church who had an older car and she sold it to my dad for $1 dollar, so we had something to drive. She had always saved this car as it was the car someone had given her for $1, she just passed it on.

I am going to work on the following questions:

1. I'd like to change...
2. I'd like more...
3. I keep thinking...
4. In six months I'd like...
5. The most Important thing in my life right now...
6. The qualities I admire most...
7. I'd be happy if...

I am also going to ask myself a very important question that I talked about earlier in one of my posts, Am I going through the motions right now in my life in some aspect? I need to really be honest and answer this question. If I do address this "coasting" then I will be able to open more awareness, more opportunities and insights.

Now I told you what my old words were...my new words are acknowledgement of strengths, self-trust, love. I work on the replacement words everyday, I carry them inside and play them louder than the old words. I drive in the car and I say them, I feel them deep in my soul. I do this AS IF...everyday isn't a winner for me, but how each day starts and ends is mine. Do I wake up excited for the day, asking for a sign? Yes! Do I go to sleep and count how I was blessed today? Yes! I give myself permission to change.

I have been doing meditations working on my heart and my forgiveness "muscle". I am using Constance Denby's Heart Meditations to open up my heart and expand. I would recommend it as a starting place. There are many excellent ones in the market. Dean and Dudley also have excellent music to meditate by. I never knew the power of meditations until I started and now, I can't imagine not meditating as a way to hear the silence within. That is where our inspiration comes from, our creativity, our passion about our lives. Try it, listen for the silence!

My World, My Way

After a weekend where you start to make life changes, it proves your character if you are still as committed when you get back into the "real world", facing challenges and trying to get the things that need to get done and the things that you know should get done to move the "cheese".

We are having a big political party here at the house for fundraising on Saturday and there is so much to do and yet, I am finding, that everything is getting done. I love the ability to host these parties and yet I forget how much work they are...

I have been thinking about change lately, it is on my mind. I am thinking that sometimes it is so comfortable the space that we are in, even though we are not happy. It would mean stretching and moving from this spot of complacency. I have been working on my affirmations, I say them daily, knowing that within them is the power of my change. As I say each affirmation, and daily with in, I know that it is tearing down the walls of my current life and at the same time building a new me, with a positive voice inside.

These are my affirmations this week:
1. I am a spiritual high vibrational human do-ing.
2. I am sexy healthy and fit.
3. I share my abundance.
4. I have healthy, loving relationships with everyone I meet.
5. I love my job, it pays me exceedingly well and I do worthwhile work.

I have these all as they each cover a vital aspect of my life:

Spiritual
Health
Wealth
Relationships
Career

As I continue to grow, I know that my affirmations will blend into something else as I develop through each of these characteristics. Do you do daily affirmations? I have found that it is working for me, as I am tuning out the negative voices in my head and placing another positive, inspiring message there.

Can you truly stop talking about the past? Should you? I think you should learn from the past, change the habits that are slowing you down and not moving you forward, but it is the vision of the future and of our dreams that keep us alive...it is what we call hope, it is the start of change!

The world, this weekend!!!

I just came from a weekend retreat in Sedona, AZ. It was put on by Maximizing Success, the brainchild of the incredible pairing of Patricia Drain and Debbie Allen. It was the Wealth and Lifestyle Retreat. How Wonderfully Awesome it was...It had so many industry leaders talking about change, lifestyle, law of attraction, waking up and living, selling to get rich and creating a cash machine to make you money every hour of every day. I have come home, enthused, excited and ready to tackle some of my biggest challenges, first and foremost me...

I realize that I need to step up my game if I want to get beyond this point right now...why do I keep doing an action if it is not moving me forward, why do I expect a different result by doing or acting the same way? I need to change, I need to wake up and be in the moment that I am at, the moment in which I can create, share and love. I need to think about outsourcing my things that do not make me money and concentrate on the things that do.

I learned more about the okay-ness of thinking outside the box, about wanting more and it is not selfish, about how to give a legacy to people who need me and to my loved ones. It moved me to be open to change and to start a positive dialogue within myself. I am going to surround myself with people who support me and learn to let go those that do not understand nor support. I have commiitted to myself to do something that stimulates the brain every evening from this week forward, read a book, watch a DVD about a business topic, learn a computer program or process. I will work on my business plan and plan my business. I have changed my priorities to include me, myself and I, as I morph into this gung ho, personal development focused human "doing" (I heard that this weekend and it is perfect, I no longer want to be a "be-ing", I want to be a "do-ing".

I guess this is a watch out world, here I come, warning. It's a new girl on the block!

A thought from when I was traveling, knowing that special someone was just around the corner:

I can feel her eyes on me and when I look she is gone. She breathes on my neck and I curl into her comfort, leaning back for the warmth that I know is there and I find a wall, cold and hard. I ache for her touch but it doesn’t come, releasing me from this prison of my feelings. I want so much to tell her the words that my heart sings, and yet, I am mute, looking into her eyes, hoping that she sees what I cannot say. Places on my body cry out in a sweet agony, knowing that she is near but too far to hear it’s plea for capture, for tactile warfare of the intimate kind. She assaults my senses as I wonder what she tastes like, what she smells like and how soft her skin is, what her places of wonder hold for the traveler.

It is a piece of my soul that I share!

The World of my Journey

Today, I go to Sedona, land of Vortex's and spiritual journey's. Have you been there? I went once and I cried for the whole afternoon, it was like I drove into someplace of cathartic Karma. I cried for all my pain, real or imagined, I cried from lost loves, I cried for people who I thought I was long beyond. I cried because the tears were there and I was feeling the moment.

This weekend, I am going there to attend Debbie Allen's "Maximizing Success" seminar that I am hoping will inspire me to greater heights. It has a panel of successful experts that will impart thier knowledge of what helped make them successful and how they are living the lifestyle that they always dreamed. I am looking for the golden nugget to apply into my life.

I keep looking for what I think my passion is, where it lies inside of me. I think I have identified 3 major passions, travel, people and creating things with technology. Now all I have to do is figure out how to make those three make me money...Any Ideas? I could be a traveling consultant. I loved that when I did it before.

I am reading the WorkBook of the Celestine Prophesy by James Redfield, it is making me dig deeper inside myself to analyze how I react, respond, allow the world to affect me. I would suggest it for anyone looking to go further in thier relationships and beyond where they currently are. It will change you and change your perspective on who you love and how you treat each other.

My World, Today

I realized yesterday that I am moving so fast, almost like a cartoon character spinning on oil as he tries to run. That is so exhausting and non result oriented. Have you seen "The Secret"? I have and I have been trying to apply the principles that they expounded on it. You know, the manifestation part...the "you will see it when you believe it!" I do see a change that is happening in me in subtle ways, as I am manifesting better health, I am reaching for the healthier snack choice, as I manifest greater wealth, I am finding the money to pay my bills. As I try to enjoy my every day at the office, I find that I have less personal issues with my fellow workers, my stress is less.

I also realize that I need to stop a little more often and realize that this race I am on doesn't play again, it is a one way race and I had better make good choices on who and where I choose to spend my time. I want to surround myself with people who only support me in my quest for growth, who do not have limits, who are growing themselves. I want to laugh and to cry, to see the special in all my moments that I share in this race...I am a participant, not an automaton nor spectator!

The World I want to live in

What do you like about other people? Is there a list that you keep in your head about what you like about your friends? Or even people that you have just met? Will Rodgers said that there wasn't anyone that he couldn't find something he liked about them, even if it was just saying goodbye. I am trying to look for the inspirational in people, for the good and the kind, rather than the fault finding and the all the issues. Sometimes it is hard, it takes a moment to shudder off the initial black or white "I like them, I Don't" it takes effort to look deeper and see something that makes them special.

I was in class yesterday and we had an exercise where we needed to write something we liked about our classmates and after we were done, to share it with them. I took a moment and examined them so I could find that deeper thing to tell them about, not just the "I like your smile". I found myself coming up for the easy compliment but I stuck with it. It was hard to look them in the eyes and tell them what I liked about them. What was harder still and more telling, was having to look them in the eyes as they told me what they liked about me. I went back to my seat and wrote down the ones I could remember, so when I have those down days were I need a lift, I will look at this and see how I am seen in the world. I was told that my energy is so positive, my smile is so welcoming, that I am so open is sharing what I am experiencing (which is really funny as I am soo Private)...that I have a wonderful voice and that they could listen to me talk for a long time, that I am so very intelligent and yet don't strut it around. All these thoughts helped me, find me on my journey.

I am learning so much about myself in this class, I am coming into an honest look of myself. A thing that shook me to my core yesterday, was the realization that to "play bigger", to get my dreams, I would have to become more visible. I think my whole life that I have become comfortable with sitting in the back seat...I was the middle child, the younger sister, the girl to my brother's boy, the good one who never made trouble, the one who was always there but never loud, never in the mix of things...raised in a religion that said women had to be less than man, a woman engineer who was in the room and knew the answers but was afraid of speaking up, a teenager who was the "one that men married, but didn't date"...No longer will that work for me, it is my time to show who and what I am, my time to put me first and get to where I want to go! There is no one more important than me, my needs and wants counts.

I want to play bigger, I want to be more, I want to be everything that I can be on this, my journey. I know that Nothing is Impossible, Do you?

The World and Today

This weekend I think I had an epiphany, it came to me, the thought that I have been looking for. I have been trying to master all the new age concepts of being a spiritual being, and being able to manifest what you want or where you want your life to be...And Suddenly, it Occured to me...I realized that my life is like a boat, I am captain of this vessel and the world, the universe, is the vast ocean. I can let other people drive the vessel if I want to but usually that doesn't work out well, I can just let it float, but I go no where fast. It is when I take the wheel of this ship, I actively participate in the functioning of this ship where it become a smooth sailing vessel. This is the missing link to all the other beliefs. This is the part that I did not connect. Now, I have the tools to move this ship...Think out it, do you have the tools to move yours?

The world we all live in

Change! Isn't that the thing that we are all afraid of? Isn't that like standing on the shifting sands and trying to keep your balance? I think that CHANGE isn't the thing we should fear. I think what we truly fear is our inability to think we can adapt to the change. We get afraid of the possibility that we ourselves might have to change and that is what stagnates so many people. Jung once stated"...Man, in a sense, represents the whole of humanity and its history. What was possible in the history of mankind at large is also possible on a small scale in every individual". This means that every thought, decision and action we make every day creates our continuing reality. It is estimated that we have about 90,000 thoughts a day, what if we turned them to positive thinking? Now, what an option for change, what a vehicle we have made ourselves.

I have realized that it is my core beliefs that has been an invisible factor in my life, it has affected my thinking and my results. I am at a point that I need to change the things that have not worked for me. Quoting Deepak Chopra " the physical world, including our bodies, is a response of the observer. We create our bodies as we create the experience of our world".

I am learning that perception is a learned function. That the world I live in is dictated by how I learned to perceive it. So in essence, if I change my perception, I will change my experience of my body and of my world. I am working on adopting a positive, conscious, curious, full of wonder and gratitude perception so my world, my life can begin to look how I want it to look. I am also realizing that even though I am me, a separate being, I am a part and connected to the intelligence that moves the whole universe. I need to trust my evolution of consciously noticing coincidental events.

I am learning to embrace change and realize that I am making it happen, by changing my thoughts and changing my perceived boundaries. I am opening up to life all the possibilities therein.

The World of my journey

So friends, last night I was thinking about coincidences and sychronicity and was wondering if I pay attention all the time to the signs that are being shown to me. I think I have mono-vision focus, work, work, work...I get up and get ready for work, at work I stay moving and busy, coming home, I prepare dinner and then get ready for, yup, you guessed it, work tomorrow morning. It is a continous cycle.

On this new pathway of discovery, I am trying to make myself more aware of the little things, like taking a moment to breathe, really feeling the emotion I am in and then releasing it, of not numbing myself out, of seeing the little joys that surround me and being grateful for them. I think it is this thought of gratitude that is helping me stay aware. As I drive I verbally say a list of things that I am grateful for. My personal game is that I cannot repeat items that I have already said. This makes me take the time to examine my life, look at all of those moments and find the positive in it all. It takes work, but it has helped me re-focus my perspective on things.

There have been moments in my life that have defined my choices, made me search my soul and my beliefs and when I think about what all transpired at those times, I can see that they were full of coincidences and moments of synchronicity. I am trying to reflect on that and see in my current situation, if there are signs of change happening to me.

I want to be present and a participant in my life, not an numb robot. I am discovery the me that is and in that discovery, I learn more about my world and all the possibilities that there are in it. I can create my world today as I seek for signs and ask to be aware of the signs as they are happening to me.

The world I live in

I am on a journey, hell aren't we all... Since the fateful year of 2001, I seem to have been stripped of everything that I hold dear and have started to recreate myself. This has led me to many experiences that sometimes, it seems that I just need to take a breath and say, whew, "what just happened?". I am growing in ways that I did not think was imaginable, faced obstacles like starting a business and losing a business, giving it my soul and finding out it was not enough. Finding love and finding out that I am not enough in that either...but what came from all of these things is that I am stronger, better, more spiritually focused (meaning inwardly focused) on who I am.

I am sad that today there are people who do not have food to eat, or someplace to lay thier head, or someone who loves them, or at least someone who tells them. I cry when I see how much we are raping the tender earth that we live in, how we by-pass the older person, who has so much to say, just because they are old, how we ignore our neighbor because we are different. Do we not breath the same air? Do we not all come from the same place? Do our differences really scare us this much that we cannot allow someone who is different from us the same rights and considerations that we have come to believe is ours?

I believe that we need to stop and take a moment and truly write down a list of why we are so afraid of these differences, will they change us? Does I really want to hurt them and in effect hurt myself? Would I want it to happen to me? That is the biggie question, when I ask myself that, I use that as my judging block...Would I want it to happen to me? And on the days that I am being open and honest, I can usually say no!

The next question I ask myself is "will I change by knowing them?" And again, the answer is I usually find out more about myself in the journey to get them or their circumstance better. I do change by expanding them into my thought, my feelings and my emotions. I grow as a person, I grow as a segment of society, I change into something like a better version of myself.

Someone once said that a society or a community is made up of a single person, who can effect change within it. Today, I become the person for change!